Ok, I said it! Yes I do know that 40 isn't old, but it is to me. All my life I have thought 40 was over the hill - you know middle-aged. Well here I am at 39 and I am dreading it. I do feel pretty childish in my desire to stay young. The reality is that we all get older. I know this however I didn't realise your age doesn't change how you feel on the inside. I still feel 23 at heart. My outside does not look 23 anymore, sometimes the mirror gives me a shock. Inside I still feel young and full of life. This is not how I expected 40 (or 39) to feel.
Actually I don't know what I thought 40 would feel like. It always seemed so far away- until now. I guess I have to start acting like an adult and look at the positive things in my life. Honestly I would not change anything. I just like to throw a little verbal tantrum every so often. I love my life - all 39 years of it. God has truly blessed me with all of my desires; from getting married to a wonderful guy, the three children I wanted, a blue- eyed Siamese who adores me and a white corolla Verso.
Here's to another 39!
(just a little aside - now that 3 more years have passed I can freely admit nothing makes you "grow up" faster than having a teenager in the house, never mind 2!)