Friday, 5 December 2008

Stefanie's

My Father, my daughter holding hands
She doesn't hesitate to trust,
Me?
I'm the one holding back,
removed and taking photos
~it's easier than dealing with the emotion of how badly I want to be " my daddy's little girl"
the fear of rejection stings too painfully
and I can't overcome the need to protect myself rather than take that risk...
The result ? Two adults unable to show their love for one another.
Why can't I be mature enough to trust like a little child?

6 comments:

Lida said...

That was beautiful, and that picture is amazing

Alicia O. & the gang said...

Oh my goodness! THe whole scrapping thing is way out for me...you guys are A.MA.ZING! Your pages look to good to be real! Thanks for popping by my blog too! Great to see yours!

Tracy said...

Wow!! I feel the pain, Stef and I KNOW exactly how you feel - Thanks for sharing such an incredibly personal moment ...

Love, Tracy G

Ronda P. said...

wow...now that's open, honest, & heartfelt. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find the courage to take the leap.

Stefanie Eskander said...

Thanks for sharing your blogs with me, I love what you wrote. So heartfelt! I hope to stop by here regularly!

Shannon said...

Stefanie,

I too, can understand the distance you feel....it's painful to feel that detached and have that longing. I hope that you and your dad can come together one day and your heart will fill up with the happiness that you truly deserve.

Thank you for being so honest and raw.